Happy New Year!
I hope everyone had an awesome NYE. I hung out with my friends and had a blast. I also discovered that the older you get, the harder it is to stay up til 2am dancing the night away. Two days later, and I’m still tired. But, it was a lot of fun and probably one of the best NYE I’ve had in a long time.
So like everyone at the beginning of the year, I am jumping on the bandwagon and making some new years resolutions. I’ve got a new place that I LOVE, I start a new job next week and I am renewing some friendships. I figure with all the “newness” going on in my life right now, I should throw some resolutions in there as well.
I’ve decided to make my resolutions public this year. I know everyone does this, but I figure if they are open, on my blog and everyone can see them, I’ll be more likely to stick to them. At least that’s what I am hoping. I only have two.
1) Get healthy and take care of myself.
So, as I was getting ready to go out with my girls for a night of dancing in Phoenix, I looked in the mirror and realized that damn…I have packed on weight. And in that moment,I was done. I made the decision that I would no longer do this to myself. I remember what it was like to be smaller and boy did I love it. I had more confidence, energy and I was much happier.
I have never been thin, and never will be and I am cool with that. But, as I looked at the woman in the mirror, I realized how unhealthy I’ve become. I’ve really neglected myself and it’s really showing physically. I know where this road leads, and after seeing my mother get taken out by not having the healthiest lifestyle and a ton of stress, I knew something had to change.
I know I can be healthy again because I was before. It’s the making it stick and not turning to food when life is not going my way is the key.
I use the excuses that my mom’s illness, grad school and unhappiness with my career choice were all to blame for my unhealthy life choices. Well, my mother is no longer sick and is now in heaven so I can no longer use that as an excuse. I am no longer in school, so that excuse is now null and void. And, I start a new job in a week. I am out of excuses and the problem is just me being lazy and abusing food.
So, I bought myself a food and exercise diary. I started today, wrote everything down that I ate, which really, really makes you think about what you are sticking in your mouth. I gave myself an obtainable monthly goal such as dropping a pants size. Finally, I wrote out my activities for the week, stocked my fridge with nothing but lean meats, berries, and all kinds of veggies and bought a ton of tupperware so I pack my lunches. It’s only the first day but I am hopeful.
To deal with stress…I am just going to be more active and not stuff my face with crap. I love to run and have gotten away from that since moving to AZ so I downloaded Couch to 5k on my phone so I can get back to running again. I might as well take advantage of the lovely weather we are having now since come June it’ll be 5 degrees cooler than Hell. My new place backs into a canal and bird sanctuary, plenty of room to run and explore.
2. Be a better Christian…seriously.
I’ve been a Christian since I was about 8 years old, but really didn’t start understanding what that meant until I was 18. After a few years of being with a group that really screwed up my view on Christianity, I backtracked quite a bit. It took me quite a while from that previous experience to get back on track and put God in the center of my life again. With time I learned that my walk with Christ is a personal thing, I learned to trust God and then finally other Christians. I did find an amazing church in Fresno, but I can’t run to Fresno every time I feel like I am on “E” in the Jesus department. Although, I do love to visit.
My second resolution/goal this year is to have a stronger relationship with God, and a more personal one. Having a great church and awesome friends to fellowship with are great things, but if I can’t feed myself spiritually, I am going to suffer. I’ve experienced 6 months of this already and it sucks. My pastor from home said that not spending time with God when you are a Christian, you might as well be the walking dead. I like zombies, but do I want to be a spiritual zombie moving through life affecting no one…no.
So, as I continue my search for a good church here, I am going to commit myself to reading the bible more and prayer. This one feels like the hardest one to me, but it’s the most important. I’ve been putting it on the back burner and the only one I am really hurting is myself.
So those are my resolutions. I plan to stick to them because really, I’m out of excuses for things I’m not satisfied with in my life. In the end, everything points to me and nothing will change unless I make the first move.
Here’s to new beginnings and sticking with it.